Spring Break why?!

Christmas was pretty awesome this year. Well actually it didn't feel like Christmas at all. 

First of all we had Christmas Eve on the 23rd.....

Not a whole lot of logic there. And on the actual Christmas Eve it was just like any other night, except mom and dad were wrapping presents and... well that's about it. I even ran 8 miles because i was that bored. 

Christmas day was better then i had planned, because Heather was still at home in the morning so we could open our gifts. Then everyone else came later. But there still wasn't a time when we were all together which really made it suck. But overall i wasn't unhappy, i of course missed Andrew, but not that he's back i've never been happier!

Why i mention Spring Break? Because Andrew for the past month has kept it a secret what he was getting me, all i knew was that it was a trip during Spring Break. Spent days trying to figure out where. It had to be somewhere where we weren't alone, so that would make it either St George, Canada or Colorado. I was playing Sherlock Holmes

But he was doing a very convincing job of telling me he had enough skymiles to go somewhere and he told me it was out of the state. St George was still ruled in because we could easily drive down to Arizona. But St George just isn't as cool. 

California is too expensive, and Canada is also. 

Anyway the Sunday before Christmas, because he was leaving to St George to be with his family, he came over and we exchanged gifts. I knew my gift was going to suck because well i'm terrible at gift giving. Then he gave me mine. The moment of TRUTH!

*drum roll*

WE'RE GOING TO COLORADO TO STAY WITH HIS DAD IN HIS HUGE HOUSE! Not sure of everything we are going to do in Denver but i'm just SO SO SO excited!!!

Almost Time To Relax

Just two and a half weeks left of school. A couple of interviews tomorrow and i'll basically be done! 

These last few weeks have been crazy honestly. I'm not sure how take it all in, what to think of all of it. I feel like after this semester i just kind of have fluff classes, not real interview classes like i do with TV Journalism and Intermediate News Writing. 

Alas i am glad that i will be done and be able to relax and be a better friend and girlfriend. I'm not so used to having time, and i'm sure when next semester comes i will be so confused and not know what to do with myself. 

I feel like Peter from Narnia right now. The scene where Peter is talking to Aslan and they're looking at Cair Paravel. 

Aslan: That is Cair Paravel, castle of the four thrones. In one of which you will sit as high king. You doubt the prophecy. 

Peter: No that's just it. I'm not who you think I am. 

Aslan: Peter Pevensie formally of Finchley. Beaver also mentioned that you planned on tuning him into a hat. Peter, there is a deep magic more powerful than any of us. It defines right and wrong. It over sees all of our destinies, yours and mine. 

Basically what's going through my head is what the heck is going to happen next year? I never in a million years thought i'd be where i am, and knowing what i know right now 8 months ago. Not that the future scares me, i like where i am. I just feel like I've had to lose a lot to gain a lot and i don't like it very much. 

But soon that will all change once i get school over with... hopefully. Back to homework. Then two interviews tomorrow. 

Late Night Blog

Because Heather decided to use the bathroom and i need to use it before bed, i am now going to write a blog.... when i should probably be working on HW but you know whatever. 

So there's basically 3.5 weeks left of school. HOLY SACRED HINDI ANIMAL!!!

I am so exausted and am ready for a break where i can exercise and not worry about homework... till January 6th, and hang out with Andrew.... untill he's in St George then he'll come up here and yeah. But anyway it's the best news ever and feeling! I don't care i know i have A's in two classes and my news writing class is a B- but just as long as i pass that class i really don't care. 

Well this was a short blog, but with a 7:30 class it is time for bed. So i should say goodnight but I'll probably end up watching YouTube videos till i just can't take it anymore. 

Gosh darn it I love the PianoGuys

Post Emotions

Yeah that last blog was just a little but over dramatic. I think it was the excessive sugar.... maybe... idk.

But i just got burned out this weekend, and since i decided i didn't want to do any homework this last weekend i am feeling so much better, only because i am deciding not to worry so much because it's just not good for me.



There's only like 5 weeks left in the semester, which elated me. I have 6 credits set up for next semester... i still need to actually declare my major and declare a minor. This is all so confusing. I'm excited though to have a theater minor, something i enjoy doing, and i miss the stage.

Like today we had a run through (which sucked btw) for our next news show and i'm going to be the anchor! TA DA!!



Being in front of the camera was so amazing, totally boosted my confidence and i just nailed it... maybe... we'll see what the professor says.

Jazz season has started... not to a good start but A for effort... not really they just fail when it comes to the fourth quarter.

Well just a half hour longer and Andrew will be here!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I just never see that kid *note the sarcasm* every freakin day, except Friday because i want time to hang out with friends that i have been neglecting. KIMMM SHE HAS THE POWER!!



The end :)

Weird Moments

You know those moments where you feel like you have no time to do anything, yet you think to yourself, hey I have three days to do what i need to do. It's just the worst when you have to rely on other people to fulfill their assignment in order for you to do yours.

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I learned from an early age that relying on people is not the way to go in life. Which is kind of sad, but really relying on people who can't even get a simple assignment done yeah. Writing a script for a news show is going to be harder than expected. 

I'm really kind of sick of people thinking that i have it easy. At work i wanted to punch my co-workers in the face. Really the only one in that group that can say they don't have time to do anything is Ryan because he has kids and no car. My boss on the other hand goes home and eats pizza and tevos her stupid reality shows. My other co-worker plays online games. They really have no right to tell me that their lives are busier than mine. THEIR WORK DOESN'T FOLLOW THEM HOME!!!! I HAVE WORK EVERY NIGHT SON! I'm almost to the point of an emotional break down. 

Yeah i know i should be willing to talk face to face with someone about this and vent, but i still have this thing where no one really cares, even my adoring boyfriend, i had a hard time even sharing my feelings with the former boyfriend. I just feel like no one wants to watch someone cry. Which is true, but no one really wants to console you because they can't fix it and they don't know what to do. 

OK i gotta stop being so stressed, but really i wanna hide and avoid people, which is bad. Like i'd love to just get away with Andrew or another friend, but someone who will remind me that life is ok no matter what. Is it bad that i can't do that? I dunno. This blog might be more over dramatic then it should, i mean it's one in the morning. meh oh well. 

I'm sick of always being there for people and hearing their problems and trying to help. but there really isn't anyone there for me. 

Storm Has Passed

But life has been good to me lately, except a lack of sleep. The Lord blessed me in that i had time to finish my news story since things just kept getting thrown in my face, church callings, friends being dumped. and now i have *cue trumpets* Andrew!

Things are moving so fast with him, but it feels so right. He makes me feel like a million dollars and says things that make me speechless. That does happen. Every night that we've hung out... which has been every night since Monday it's so hard to say bye. We talk for hours, we start watching a movie but then we just talk through the movie.

The funny thing with him is that i've known of him and he's known of me since we were like four. He's my best friend growing up's cousin. He's also really good friends with Aaron. So when he came off his mission last year i already know who he was. I have always had a little thing for him, he's very attractive and has such a fun personality that i clicked with. Apparntly it's crossed his mind too, which made me feel awesome. 

Anyway it's been almost three weeks since we started dating. It's been really great and yes I have seen him everyday, except last Thursday because of the football game, and tonight he has to study. But he still calls me and plans lunch dates just to see me. I shouldn't be so excited but i am. Then again it's that honeymoon stage. 

This weekend i'll be down in St George with him and his family, this will be interesting. I'm SO SO SO excited, yet so scared at the same time. I shouldn't be, but i am, but a good scared. Well tomorrow we have a lunch date, and he's coming over to watch a scary movie, then Saturday we're off to St George till Tuesday!

TV Journalism

Oh my gosh TVJ is starting to catch up with me. Honestly i do love that class because i actually get to be a reporter and do what i want to do in the future. It's like a preview, except i'll have people with me that know how to use a camera. LOL I do a better job at camera work than the Newsbreak people. Oh how i love life... well actually not really. I still want pancakes. Pancakes and Breaking Bad. And someone who is normal.

 

 Yes this is completely normal. 

Oh my head kills. I don't wanna go into work. I need a breather day. Seriously i'm moving all day. School then straight to work, then homework, then trying to have time to hang out with people. I have no freedom. Well i guess i have a choice, but making right choices doesn't make sense now does it? Do we really have choices or were we just brought up in a way where people trained us to make certain choices, not really the choices we want.

 

I'm also in the market for a new car. yes this is my fault because i haven't done my duty in selling the Honda, the Chevy, or my piece of crap SHO. But tis life. I need someone who will take care of it for me lol i have way too much going on with friends, school, dating, it's just not panning out the way I want. I thought we were supposed to gain blessings after making a sacrifice, which i did. But everything is not going well.

LOL Saul. I can't wait for the spin off of Breaking Bad. 

I feel like i have to throw up. This might not end well. I need to lay down and figure out what's wrong with my body, and my head. Hopefully hanging out with friends tomorrow will help me out. Bonfire up in the canyon with Whitnie and her BF, and Jill. Plus it'll be fun seeing the battle of attention between Andrew and Alex. Yeah it's going to be a riot. Then after i get to hang out with Andrew and watch Star Wars, but he did fail yesterday after my car broke down and i texted him. The ex got back to me faster and made me feel better, then took the time to call me and ask me if i was ok. Man life sucks. 

Yesterday Sucked

Yesterday just sucked.

 

 I was in such a bad mood, and it started off that way because a girl in my TVJ class took my news story, i was so pissed! She didn't know what to tell about so i showed her a list of ideas i had, and i even had a big star next to the story i wanted to do! They asked her before me what she wanted to do and boom she said it. I was so pissed!!!! 

 

So i gave one of my ideas and she got a 2 minute bit, they gave me 30 seconds. UGH that hoe. Anyway rest of school was alright, even ran into my buddy Ryan Orton who i have missed. It really was the only thing that went well yesterday. It was a wonderful embrace. I miss that kid. 

 

Well he talked to me for too long lol so i was late for work. not to mention i didn't grab a lunch cause i woke up late so i had to stop my Wendys and people had to get their value fries. I got my salad. I am not anorexic.   

 

Work was annoying only because my boss feels like she has to be my friend when i really don't want her too. It's just annoying. There wasn't anyone to talk to and i just sat there and festerd in my anger.  I wanted to punch someone. Well got out of there at 6, drove home and threw off my work clothes and laid in bed till Institute. Woke up and saw what was for dinner. Hamburger soup, which i love and i couldn't wait to get home and have some after institute. 

Now don't get me wrong i love insttute. I just hate the classes that are over packed and all the kids in the back are snickering and talking. Not to mention i was just angry in the first place and i wanted to turn to them and say "HEY I'M HERE TO FEEL THE SPIRIT NOT LISTEN TO YOUR ESCAPADES OF SKIING AND HOW INTERESTING YOU ARE IN THE GIRL NEXT TO ME!"

Ugh after driving my crap car home, almost hit like 4 things because the dang power steering sucks balls. 

Got home and there wasn't any parking because Josh and Maren just have to drive separate and take up my parking spaces, and my car was already having problems with turning. Got inside knowing i could finally eat something. Went to the pot and found like half a cup of soup in there. I knew who the cow was. I was mad. I just stormed downstairs and started doing homework holding back tears. The ex and the only person i feel really cares about how i feels called and let me vent. Poor kid, he doesn't have to do that anymore, he's just a REAL friend who doesn't have to love me, but still does. 

Anyway there's my bad day yesterday. 

Life Continues

Day 2 of this class, and let me tell ya, I sit behind a beam and I enjoy it. If she's not going to smile at me, then so be it!!! But i do look adorable today, and i do sit behind a very cute guy.... even if there is a huge Mac in the way. 

 

Anyway i don't have much to write about honestly. Life just continues on, Miley Cyrus continues to scar our ears and eyes with her face. I mean honestly I didn't mind her when she was Hannah Montana. But this is getting ridiculous. I need to stop talking about her, that's what she wants anyway. At least Hilary Duff got her life on track, so lets pray for Miley. 

I need to finish Breaking Bad. Yes i do watch that show but it's so awesome! I did run really fast today,  and only almost got hit by a car once, and attacked by a tree once. I think that's progress. I'm just bored. I love how this teacher says Marriot.  Mareeeaught! I'm already scared, i think she's an Xmen... or a cat. yeah she looks like a cat. Am i ranting? Yes. The end. Now time for the day to begin :)

Another Day at the U

Well school starts again, probably a good thing to get my mind off Josh. Ugh these few weeks have been hard, even though we still talk, it's still hurts to know he's not mine and i have to move on and so does he.

 

So far my classes seem like hell, but more like a dark pit of stress. I have to have stories every week , while writing stories, filming them, and being an anchor for my class, oh and a producer, director and learn the technological side of news. Just a lot to take in. Then again I'm going to be a senior soon so i should assume my classes are going to be sucky, and a lot of hard work. TV Journalism sounds the hardest, but i think i'm going to really understand what i want to do with my future with that class. 

 

In other news i decided to try Tinder, this weird dating app where I have talked to a guy who straight up said "If we hang out we should make out." 

 

And another wanted to see me in my sexy underwear... that i apparently have. Don't worry he's been blocked.

 

And the rest are all from the Y. Which honestly i'm not interested in dating anyone right now, I just need a self esteem booster, and knowing some guys out there think I'm cute. So far about 40 guys have liked me, which is nice. Well back to school. Peace OUT!

 

Long TIme

So here i am in class and it's News Writing so i basically have the right to write.... that sounded weird. Plus i'm sure everyone wants to hear about my California excursion with the boyfriend, who i still miss very much and inside feeling totally like...

 

But i tell him everyday i'm totally fine and he says the same but he even admitted to crying on the way home after dropping me off at the airport, basically crying to Piano Man by Billy Joel. Poor kid. Ugh i miss him.  I MISS HIM! I can't handle it. I feel so ridiculous. I hate long distance. 

But yes i made it home alive, and a virgin, not sure why my parents didn't think i couldn't come home still temple worthy, especially with a guy who tells me everyday that i mean the world to him. Which makes long distance harder because i feel the same about him. Moving fast much? 

 

So here i am. We went to Chico, Fort Bragg, uh... didn't make it to the Red Woods which my brother in law blames on making out which isn't true. We got lost, it's California, be nice. 

We did stay at his dad's house i Bangor which was awesome, so many stars at night and you could hear the frogs! Pretty sure his family was freaked out when i told them i was excited that i heard frogs. Hey you can't hate. I'm a city girl we hear cars, and crickets... that's about it. 

OH and i just found out I had an assignment worth 10% of my grade due over the break lol good thing no one else did it. 

I have to much to write, but sadly class is starting. PLEASE people I need to hang out with people ti keep me distracted... if i'm not doing homework... or getting ready for next semester. Crap. I hate school. FML!

 and FINALLY my hickey is fading!