What The?

So last night I'm getting ready to go to a movie with Gordon and his buddies when I get a text from Mark. I was surprised, i mean we were texting earlier that day but this one stopped me in my tracks. "Hey so do you need space?"

Um... yeah him and i have been going out the past 4 weeks. So i reply, "what do you mean?" Of course i know what he means, but I wasn't sure what he was implying. "I feel like I'm taking you away from your friends." "Not at all why do you think that?" "Because we've been hanging out every weekend." "Yeah so? I don't hate it, do you?" The way that was texted probably sounded pissed, but i wasn't. I just hate guys mind games. So retarded. Who's with me?!

To continue "No, I love it! I Just worry about your friends." Anyway we concluded we like hanging out with each other and we want to go out this weekend again. I told him I'd plan it this time. I have no idea what to do. Should be interesting. He told me he likes talkin to me and hanging out with me. Kids is still the most quiet kid ever, but we'll see how things go. I still have a hard time trusting him, but people change right? He needs some growing up to do. But then again I REALLY want to take his VL. Does that make me a bad person?

Therapudic

I just need this song right now. I have so much bottled up emotion! Skillet and Breaking Benjiman, Eminem, if you know of any others that are like them let me know! I need some major anxiety songs.

Not Going To School... Yet

Yes I am cool and not going to school. Actually I'm not gonna lie, I'm quite jealous of all my friends for going to school. Good thing I have institute, once a week, for an hour and a half. That is my social life, and then the little doo dads with the singles ward, then sometimes dates with Mark, and Gordon dragging me to random things. I need to hang out with girls, no i really do. The people I hang out with in the singles ward are guys, and you already know who they are.

I could go on about that, but i think I'm just going to keep my boy thoughts to myself for this blog. Save ya'll the pain, and I'm pretty sure I can imagine what you're thinking.

SO SINCE I'm not going to school, i will be focusing my life on Jesus. Yes I mean i already do, but I'm going to be going the whole 9 yards like every Mormon girl should. Read my scriptures, journal writing, institute attending, temple attending, praying, and i'm sure i can think of more. But it's been working, focusing on more important things has made life seem more easier. I do love my church, in fact today a friend in California was asking questions about the Book of Mormon, missionary moment, it was awesome.

PS haha ugly crier from New Girl. I just love this show. I have mentioned it?

Donald Rant... again...

if this man ever came back to life, this is what i'd be doing. 

and that's not creepy.... 

So fantastic

Now that I have the TV to myself, i can watch whatever i want. including the most hilarious show since Seinfeld...

Little Women

So obviously my emotions are on the surface today. My mom even suggested that I move... crazy right?
Anyway of course every Sunday Heather, the little Bon Qui Qui, watches Little Women, and I do love that movie. Lately I've been praying just to feel loved, because sometimes you feel like you're being taken advantage of. You put your whole heart into a friendship and you feel like that they don't appreciate you. I love all my friends so very dearly, and I hope they know that.

So back to Little Women, I was thinking about my family, and my sisters especially and how, no matter what i do they still love me and would do anything for me just like in Little Women. The three of us compare ourselves to the sisters in Little Women, I'm Joe, Heather is Amy, and Rachel is Meg.

But My family loves me no matter what and I love that, even though they'll be gone all weekend... which sucks. But I need some "I hate my life time and I don't want anyone to see" lol. Good crying chick flick, and ice cream. Then of course I might see the boys I don't want to see and hurt myself all over again. 

I rock... NOT!