One Of Those Thoughtful Blogs

So I guess the last one was kind of a thoughtful post. But whenever I watch Across the Universe I all the sudden take a second look at my life and wonder if I'm doing what I want to be doing. In this movie they don't care what people think of them, they go with their own beat in life. I mean yes i do have more freedom since I am 21 and stuff, but I feel like I have to flow with the social norm. If I'm not then I'm an outsider.

This may sound ridiculous but heck I'd love just to go audition for a band, or a play, I say this all the time and I know i'm not gonna do it because in my mind I know it's a waste of time.

Gosh I hate being so emo sometimes. But i mean people make it look like they have a normal life, or at least some people do, some people like to be dramatic, but deep down everyone has something that bothers them about life, I guess it's just finding that one thing you can focus on to make you happy. But when that thing that makes you happy is taken away then you have nothing to focus on, so we're always looking for that thing that makes us happy, whether it be a relationship, family, drugs, whatever we're always looking for that happiness... then again we have the drugs that are an artificial happiness but it still makes us happy.

Well I am done with this blog. I'm just very tired and my filter is off so you get to read THAT.

Here I Am... Again.

I need my iTouch to charge so i have something to listen tomorrow at work, which i really REALLY don't want to go tomorrow. It's like another full week. This is why people hate Mondays. I mean when it came to school i was totally fine with it because i got to meet new people and see my friends, but work is the same thing over and over and over again. Plus i have to talk on the phone and i just can't, and of course sit at a computer all day. Wait i do that when i go home anyway...

I mean I do get to talk to my cousin all day, and I can text all my awesome friends. BTW if I text you, you're actually someone i enjoy talking to. If i haven't text you... well text me and I'll text you.

Kinda Bored.

Well third date with Aaron went down very well :) I just wish I knew what his intentions were, and I'm praying he's just not leading me on because then we'd have a problem. I guess I just have a hard time trusting guys intentions ever since Matt. But what'err.

So this week till Thursday i will be here house sitting and dog sitting. Two big boxer dogs who are just adorable sleeping while i watch TCM and swoon over the good old classics. Hopefully some Gene Kelly movies will appear because then I'd be in my happy place.

SO if anyone wants to come over they can... ya know anyone. The dogs might attack you *looks over at Oakley* or FART! but they have great cable, and a comfy couch, and left me a bunch of food. Just saying.

Since this blog is about boring stuff can i just say how excited I am for the coming months? I need March to end already. April is gonna be SO AMAZING.

1. John Willams concert with Aaron! I love both these men, can life get any better?

2. Half Marathon!

3. Get to buy The Avengers tickets which I will be seeing with Aaron.

4. Epic half marathon party with Jenn!

In May:

1/2. THE AVENGERS!!!!!!!!!

1. DISNEYLAND!

2. DISNEYLAND!

3. DISNEYLAND!

4. ALL MY FRIENDS WILL BE OUT OF SCHOOL AND I'LL HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE AGAIN!

I've spent a long time on this blog. I mean How I Met Your Mother is almost over. AND TED IS KISSING ROBIN! I do love this show. I love the Big Bang Theory too :) But i am feeling very lucky lately. Got a better job at work...even though it's stressful. When i got my car fixed the guy knocked off 100 bucks! I mean how awesome is that?! I've been asked out by 4 different guys, one is definitly a NOOO! One I had to turn down because i had another date and now he's fallen off the face of the earth. The other i really don't give a crap, and Aaron :) I'm working out, losing weight i mean life has been good. But being the half glass empty person i am i just know something awful is going to happen, i can feel it. I'm like dreading it! Anticipating it.

OK I'll stop ranting, i think I've typed your ear off. Peace out! I'll probably blog tomorrow night too... with more nothing to talk about. and yes I am in love with the show New Girl. I want to be like Jess SO MUCH!