One Of Those Thoughtful Blogs

So I guess the last one was kind of a thoughtful post. But whenever I watch Across the Universe I all the sudden take a second look at my life and wonder if I'm doing what I want to be doing. In this movie they don't care what people think of them, they go with their own beat in life. I mean yes i do have more freedom since I am 21 and stuff, but I feel like I have to flow with the social norm. If I'm not then I'm an outsider.

This may sound ridiculous but heck I'd love just to go audition for a band, or a play, I say this all the time and I know i'm not gonna do it because in my mind I know it's a waste of time.

Gosh I hate being so emo sometimes. But i mean people make it look like they have a normal life, or at least some people do, some people like to be dramatic, but deep down everyone has something that bothers them about life, I guess it's just finding that one thing you can focus on to make you happy. But when that thing that makes you happy is taken away then you have nothing to focus on, so we're always looking for that thing that makes us happy, whether it be a relationship, family, drugs, whatever we're always looking for that happiness... then again we have the drugs that are an artificial happiness but it still makes us happy.

Well I am done with this blog. I'm just very tired and my filter is off so you get to read THAT.

Here I Am... Again.

I need my iTouch to charge so i have something to listen tomorrow at work, which i really REALLY don't want to go tomorrow. It's like another full week. This is why people hate Mondays. I mean when it came to school i was totally fine with it because i got to meet new people and see my friends, but work is the same thing over and over and over again. Plus i have to talk on the phone and i just can't, and of course sit at a computer all day. Wait i do that when i go home anyway...

I mean I do get to talk to my cousin all day, and I can text all my awesome friends. BTW if I text you, you're actually someone i enjoy talking to. If i haven't text you... well text me and I'll text you.

Kinda Bored.

Well third date with Aaron went down very well :) I just wish I knew what his intentions were, and I'm praying he's just not leading me on because then we'd have a problem. I guess I just have a hard time trusting guys intentions ever since Matt. But what'err.

So this week till Thursday i will be here house sitting and dog sitting. Two big boxer dogs who are just adorable sleeping while i watch TCM and swoon over the good old classics. Hopefully some Gene Kelly movies will appear because then I'd be in my happy place.

SO if anyone wants to come over they can... ya know anyone. The dogs might attack you *looks over at Oakley* or FART! but they have great cable, and a comfy couch, and left me a bunch of food. Just saying.

Since this blog is about boring stuff can i just say how excited I am for the coming months? I need March to end already. April is gonna be SO AMAZING.

1. John Willams concert with Aaron! I love both these men, can life get any better?

2. Half Marathon!

3. Get to buy The Avengers tickets which I will be seeing with Aaron.

4. Epic half marathon party with Jenn!

In May:

1/2. THE AVENGERS!!!!!!!!!

1. DISNEYLAND!

2. DISNEYLAND!

3. DISNEYLAND!

4. ALL MY FRIENDS WILL BE OUT OF SCHOOL AND I'LL HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE AGAIN!

I've spent a long time on this blog. I mean How I Met Your Mother is almost over. AND TED IS KISSING ROBIN! I do love this show. I love the Big Bang Theory too :) But i am feeling very lucky lately. Got a better job at work...even though it's stressful. When i got my car fixed the guy knocked off 100 bucks! I mean how awesome is that?! I've been asked out by 4 different guys, one is definitly a NOOO! One I had to turn down because i had another date and now he's fallen off the face of the earth. The other i really don't give a crap, and Aaron :) I'm working out, losing weight i mean life has been good. But being the half glass empty person i am i just know something awful is going to happen, i can feel it. I'm like dreading it! Anticipating it.

OK I'll stop ranting, i think I've typed your ear off. Peace out! I'll probably blog tomorrow night too... with more nothing to talk about. and yes I am in love with the show New Girl. I want to be like Jess SO MUCH!

Drama to FUN!

Wow if you haven't heard the stories of my new job then you obviously don't talk to me that much. Such drama. I mean I've been there for less then a month and wow tension! I mean I want to still be friends with the guy but he's acting like a 4 year old. So I didn't kiss you big whoop. I try to say hi to him but...

That's how it goes down. Fine be that way, i try to make amends. You obviously only wanted to me "friends" because you wanted to do more then be friends. But now that you can't have that you don't want to be friends.

In other news my friend Ryan is breaking up with his long distance girl friend. I am proud of him. She was being selfish and not giving him the attention he deserves. He is so awesome! I am sad for his loss but I mean c'mon the girl wasn't giving him the attention he deserved. It's not fair for him to have to wait for her! Long distance relationships suck in the first place and yeah it's hard to stay committed when there are other options around you. If you're not gonna share the feelings of the relationship meaning not gonna put your effort into the long distance relationship then you suck because there's a guy over seas who's faithfully waiting. He was so great to her, and look what had to happen. But poor guy, he was in love with this girl, IN LOVE like totally thought they were gonna get hitched. I really want to punch her in the face. YOU BROKE HIS HEART!

TAKE THAT POO FACE!

The First Week

Well this new job is easy, but hard at the same time.

First day was literally the biggest pain in my butt. I was so used to doin' my own thing, walking around and at the Lion House you didn't sit. But here at Buyplumbing all you do is sit, and sit for 8 hours! By the end of my first day I thought my eyes were gonna pop out of my head.

Like seriously as soon as it hit 5 PM I am out of there

But now I am growing to like this job. I get to listen to my iPod all day, and I can text just as long as it doesn't get in my work. I get an hour break, and I don't really have to deal with customers all the time. Overall the pay is nice, and so far the people I have meet have been fabulous!

I do come home with a headache pretty much everyday from staring at the computer, but when I get my first paycheck, it'll be all worth it.

BUT FIRST WEEKEND HERE I FREAKIN COME!!!!

WHY ME?!

So I've been taking institute and well today was my last day because i got a full time job at BuyPlumbing. Well in my mission prep class there's this cute guy, he's like my type very much so, short, beautiful green eyes, brunette, and he listens intently. Well I figured since it was mission prep that he was 19. He sat on the other side of the room so i never talked to him.

Today however someone was in his seat and of all the open seats in the class he asked if he could sit by me.

Of COURSE YOU CAN! So we got to talkin, and well he actually had already served his mission.

He was just there because he could be. Well we hit it off very well. He also showed off that he could sing. WHAT IS THIS?! We were asking each other questions about ourselves and laughing at being the oldest in the class. Also when class started he was laughing at my random comments and we were just getting along. Sadly though there was no exchanging of numbers, and he's just a little bit taller then me. And he's so cute! I wish i knew his last name, but I don't.

Well I won't be attending that class anymore. I figure if God wants him and I to be together, i'll run into him eventually. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE! I WANT TO SEE HIM AGAIN!

Country Must Be Country Wide

Fourth concert of Brad Paisley for Natalie. Honestly, he said the same things he did in his last concert. Katrina however didn't remember because she was drunk. BUT i do. This concert however he did have new songs and amazing AMAZING stage presence, and affects! So bloody happy! Even Scotty McCreery was adorable! Too bad he's younger then I or I would jump on him and smack one on him. So adorkable. I also fell in love with The Band Perry, I'm trying to learn all their songs on the country.

Brad is hands down my favorite country singer. He has a great sound, he is all country, family man, plays and writes his own music, and he is freakin hot... when he has his cowboy hat on, and he gave that hat away to a lucky guy in the audience and a signed guitar. I want that guitar. Heck i woulda taken his picks.

But what i loved most about this concert what is brought me back to country music. Honestly as much as i love old school music, and jazz and stuff, I think my true love of music is in country. I looked on my iPod and wow it's 80% country music. Nothing gets me in a mood like country does. It's real, they're not afraid to talk about God in a good way, and they talk about the simple life. I LOVE COUNTRY MUSIC!