Yesterday Sucked

Yesterday just sucked.

 

 I was in such a bad mood, and it started off that way because a girl in my TVJ class took my news story, i was so pissed! She didn't know what to tell about so i showed her a list of ideas i had, and i even had a big star next to the story i wanted to do! They asked her before me what she wanted to do and boom she said it. I was so pissed!!!! 

 

So i gave one of my ideas and she got a 2 minute bit, they gave me 30 seconds. UGH that hoe. Anyway rest of school was alright, even ran into my buddy Ryan Orton who i have missed. It really was the only thing that went well yesterday. It was a wonderful embrace. I miss that kid. 

 

Well he talked to me for too long lol so i was late for work. not to mention i didn't grab a lunch cause i woke up late so i had to stop my Wendys and people had to get their value fries. I got my salad. I am not anorexic.   

 

Work was annoying only because my boss feels like she has to be my friend when i really don't want her too. It's just annoying. There wasn't anyone to talk to and i just sat there and festerd in my anger.  I wanted to punch someone. Well got out of there at 6, drove home and threw off my work clothes and laid in bed till Institute. Woke up and saw what was for dinner. Hamburger soup, which i love and i couldn't wait to get home and have some after institute. 

Now don't get me wrong i love insttute. I just hate the classes that are over packed and all the kids in the back are snickering and talking. Not to mention i was just angry in the first place and i wanted to turn to them and say "HEY I'M HERE TO FEEL THE SPIRIT NOT LISTEN TO YOUR ESCAPADES OF SKIING AND HOW INTERESTING YOU ARE IN THE GIRL NEXT TO ME!"

Ugh after driving my crap car home, almost hit like 4 things because the dang power steering sucks balls. 

Got home and there wasn't any parking because Josh and Maren just have to drive separate and take up my parking spaces, and my car was already having problems with turning. Got inside knowing i could finally eat something. Went to the pot and found like half a cup of soup in there. I knew who the cow was. I was mad. I just stormed downstairs and started doing homework holding back tears. The ex and the only person i feel really cares about how i feels called and let me vent. Poor kid, he doesn't have to do that anymore, he's just a REAL friend who doesn't have to love me, but still does. 

Anyway there's my bad day yesterday. 

Life Continues

Day 2 of this class, and let me tell ya, I sit behind a beam and I enjoy it. If she's not going to smile at me, then so be it!!! But i do look adorable today, and i do sit behind a very cute guy.... even if there is a huge Mac in the way. 

 

Anyway i don't have much to write about honestly. Life just continues on, Miley Cyrus continues to scar our ears and eyes with her face. I mean honestly I didn't mind her when she was Hannah Montana. But this is getting ridiculous. I need to stop talking about her, that's what she wants anyway. At least Hilary Duff got her life on track, so lets pray for Miley. 

I need to finish Breaking Bad. Yes i do watch that show but it's so awesome! I did run really fast today,  and only almost got hit by a car once, and attacked by a tree once. I think that's progress. I'm just bored. I love how this teacher says Marriot.  Mareeeaught! I'm already scared, i think she's an Xmen... or a cat. yeah she looks like a cat. Am i ranting? Yes. The end. Now time for the day to begin :)

Another Day at the U

Well school starts again, probably a good thing to get my mind off Josh. Ugh these few weeks have been hard, even though we still talk, it's still hurts to know he's not mine and i have to move on and so does he.

 

So far my classes seem like hell, but more like a dark pit of stress. I have to have stories every week , while writing stories, filming them, and being an anchor for my class, oh and a producer, director and learn the technological side of news. Just a lot to take in. Then again I'm going to be a senior soon so i should assume my classes are going to be sucky, and a lot of hard work. TV Journalism sounds the hardest, but i think i'm going to really understand what i want to do with my future with that class. 

 

In other news i decided to try Tinder, this weird dating app where I have talked to a guy who straight up said "If we hang out we should make out." 

 

And another wanted to see me in my sexy underwear... that i apparently have. Don't worry he's been blocked.

 

And the rest are all from the Y. Which honestly i'm not interested in dating anyone right now, I just need a self esteem booster, and knowing some guys out there think I'm cute. So far about 40 guys have liked me, which is nice. Well back to school. Peace OUT!

 

Long TIme

So here i am in class and it's News Writing so i basically have the right to write.... that sounded weird. Plus i'm sure everyone wants to hear about my California excursion with the boyfriend, who i still miss very much and inside feeling totally like...

 

But i tell him everyday i'm totally fine and he says the same but he even admitted to crying on the way home after dropping me off at the airport, basically crying to Piano Man by Billy Joel. Poor kid. Ugh i miss him.  I MISS HIM! I can't handle it. I feel so ridiculous. I hate long distance. 

But yes i made it home alive, and a virgin, not sure why my parents didn't think i couldn't come home still temple worthy, especially with a guy who tells me everyday that i mean the world to him. Which makes long distance harder because i feel the same about him. Moving fast much? 

 

So here i am. We went to Chico, Fort Bragg, uh... didn't make it to the Red Woods which my brother in law blames on making out which isn't true. We got lost, it's California, be nice. 

We did stay at his dad's house i Bangor which was awesome, so many stars at night and you could hear the frogs! Pretty sure his family was freaked out when i told them i was excited that i heard frogs. Hey you can't hate. I'm a city girl we hear cars, and crickets... that's about it. 

OH and i just found out I had an assignment worth 10% of my grade due over the break lol good thing no one else did it. 

I have to much to write, but sadly class is starting. PLEASE people I need to hang out with people ti keep me distracted... if i'm not doing homework... or getting ready for next semester. Crap. I hate school. FML!

 and FINALLY my hickey is fading!

The Attributes

I've decided after a short thought that the attributes of each of these real life men or their roles in films would make one fine man! 

The voice of

The spunk and humor of

The loyalty and patriotism of

The brains and money of

The spirituality of 

The wittiness of 

AND the looks and body of

and there ya go. Fine me one please. And then i will do this...

GRAHHH!!

WHY ARE YOU STILL TALKING TO ME?!

I KNOW I SHOULD BE TALKING TO YOU BUT NOT. IT'S A WHOLE THING BUT YEAH. 

Nothin's Gonna Change My World

Man I know I just had my heart broken, and crushed into the mud, then run over, then a dog pissed on it, then a dirty drunk came and spat tobacco on it. So now all my friends are trying to set me up, which I'm glad they want to help out, but with my luck with guys this year, I really don't want to worry about that. I like just kickin it back and thinking of myself for a change and what I want. I don't hate boys, well I kind of do, I just want to be myself for a change.

Which is probably why I love The Beatles. I loved them in junior high, and still to this day they are my most favorite!!! They just remind me to take life as it comes, and roll with the punches. I know it's cheesy but their music has this freedom sound to it, not like American freedom haha, but this feeling of being yourself and being ok with it.

So yeah i appreciate the jester of wanting to set me up with cute guys, but I'm sick of getting my heartbroken. Things were easier when i was 30 lbs heavier, didn't wear make up, and walked around in basketball shorts and an oversized t-shirt, and listened to Beatles music 24/7.

Which is why exactly right now I'm watching Across the Universe and freakin enjoying being single, and waiting for my Jude to come and be my best friend forever lol! Maybe that's just what I need. That feeling of having a best friend. I had that with Mark, but when you break up... yeah that shit is gone. I wish we never became a couple and just remained close friends. Man I'm an idiot.