Storm Has Passed

But life has been good to me lately, except a lack of sleep. The Lord blessed me in that i had time to finish my news story since things just kept getting thrown in my face, church callings, friends being dumped. and now i have *cue trumpets* Andrew!

Things are moving so fast with him, but it feels so right. He makes me feel like a million dollars and says things that make me speechless. That does happen. Every night that we've hung out... which has been every night since Monday it's so hard to say bye. We talk for hours, we start watching a movie but then we just talk through the movie.

The funny thing with him is that i've known of him and he's known of me since we were like four. He's my best friend growing up's cousin. He's also really good friends with Aaron. So when he came off his mission last year i already know who he was. I have always had a little thing for him, he's very attractive and has such a fun personality that i clicked with. Apparntly it's crossed his mind too, which made me feel awesome. 

Anyway it's been almost three weeks since we started dating. It's been really great and yes I have seen him everyday, except last Thursday because of the football game, and tonight he has to study. But he still calls me and plans lunch dates just to see me. I shouldn't be so excited but i am. Then again it's that honeymoon stage. 

This weekend i'll be down in St George with him and his family, this will be interesting. I'm SO SO SO excited, yet so scared at the same time. I shouldn't be, but i am, but a good scared. Well tomorrow we have a lunch date, and he's coming over to watch a scary movie, then Saturday we're off to St George till Tuesday!

Yesterday Sucked

Yesterday just sucked.

 

 I was in such a bad mood, and it started off that way because a girl in my TVJ class took my news story, i was so pissed! She didn't know what to tell about so i showed her a list of ideas i had, and i even had a big star next to the story i wanted to do! They asked her before me what she wanted to do and boom she said it. I was so pissed!!!! 

 

So i gave one of my ideas and she got a 2 minute bit, they gave me 30 seconds. UGH that hoe. Anyway rest of school was alright, even ran into my buddy Ryan Orton who i have missed. It really was the only thing that went well yesterday. It was a wonderful embrace. I miss that kid. 

 

Well he talked to me for too long lol so i was late for work. not to mention i didn't grab a lunch cause i woke up late so i had to stop my Wendys and people had to get their value fries. I got my salad. I am not anorexic.   

 

Work was annoying only because my boss feels like she has to be my friend when i really don't want her too. It's just annoying. There wasn't anyone to talk to and i just sat there and festerd in my anger.  I wanted to punch someone. Well got out of there at 6, drove home and threw off my work clothes and laid in bed till Institute. Woke up and saw what was for dinner. Hamburger soup, which i love and i couldn't wait to get home and have some after institute. 

Now don't get me wrong i love insttute. I just hate the classes that are over packed and all the kids in the back are snickering and talking. Not to mention i was just angry in the first place and i wanted to turn to them and say "HEY I'M HERE TO FEEL THE SPIRIT NOT LISTEN TO YOUR ESCAPADES OF SKIING AND HOW INTERESTING YOU ARE IN THE GIRL NEXT TO ME!"

Ugh after driving my crap car home, almost hit like 4 things because the dang power steering sucks balls. 

Got home and there wasn't any parking because Josh and Maren just have to drive separate and take up my parking spaces, and my car was already having problems with turning. Got inside knowing i could finally eat something. Went to the pot and found like half a cup of soup in there. I knew who the cow was. I was mad. I just stormed downstairs and started doing homework holding back tears. The ex and the only person i feel really cares about how i feels called and let me vent. Poor kid, he doesn't have to do that anymore, he's just a REAL friend who doesn't have to love me, but still does. 

Anyway there's my bad day yesterday. 

Another Day at the U

Well school starts again, probably a good thing to get my mind off Josh. Ugh these few weeks have been hard, even though we still talk, it's still hurts to know he's not mine and i have to move on and so does he.

 

So far my classes seem like hell, but more like a dark pit of stress. I have to have stories every week , while writing stories, filming them, and being an anchor for my class, oh and a producer, director and learn the technological side of news. Just a lot to take in. Then again I'm going to be a senior soon so i should assume my classes are going to be sucky, and a lot of hard work. TV Journalism sounds the hardest, but i think i'm going to really understand what i want to do with my future with that class. 

 

In other news i decided to try Tinder, this weird dating app where I have talked to a guy who straight up said "If we hang out we should make out." 

 

And another wanted to see me in my sexy underwear... that i apparently have. Don't worry he's been blocked.

 

And the rest are all from the Y. Which honestly i'm not interested in dating anyone right now, I just need a self esteem booster, and knowing some guys out there think I'm cute. So far about 40 guys have liked me, which is nice. Well back to school. Peace OUT!

 

Long TIme

So here i am in class and it's News Writing so i basically have the right to write.... that sounded weird. Plus i'm sure everyone wants to hear about my California excursion with the boyfriend, who i still miss very much and inside feeling totally like...

 

But i tell him everyday i'm totally fine and he says the same but he even admitted to crying on the way home after dropping me off at the airport, basically crying to Piano Man by Billy Joel. Poor kid. Ugh i miss him.  I MISS HIM! I can't handle it. I feel so ridiculous. I hate long distance. 

But yes i made it home alive, and a virgin, not sure why my parents didn't think i couldn't come home still temple worthy, especially with a guy who tells me everyday that i mean the world to him. Which makes long distance harder because i feel the same about him. Moving fast much? 

 

So here i am. We went to Chico, Fort Bragg, uh... didn't make it to the Red Woods which my brother in law blames on making out which isn't true. We got lost, it's California, be nice. 

We did stay at his dad's house i Bangor which was awesome, so many stars at night and you could hear the frogs! Pretty sure his family was freaked out when i told them i was excited that i heard frogs. Hey you can't hate. I'm a city girl we hear cars, and crickets... that's about it. 

OH and i just found out I had an assignment worth 10% of my grade due over the break lol good thing no one else did it. 

I have to much to write, but sadly class is starting. PLEASE people I need to hang out with people ti keep me distracted... if i'm not doing homework... or getting ready for next semester. Crap. I hate school. FML!

 and FINALLY my hickey is fading!

The Attributes

I've decided after a short thought that the attributes of each of these real life men or their roles in films would make one fine man! 

The voice of

The spunk and humor of

The loyalty and patriotism of

The brains and money of

The spirituality of 

The wittiness of 

AND the looks and body of

and there ya go. Fine me one please. And then i will do this...

GRAHHH!!

WHY ARE YOU STILL TALKING TO ME?!

I KNOW I SHOULD BE TALKING TO YOU BUT NOT. IT'S A WHOLE THING BUT YEAH. 

Nothin's Gonna Change My World

Man I know I just had my heart broken, and crushed into the mud, then run over, then a dog pissed on it, then a dirty drunk came and spat tobacco on it. So now all my friends are trying to set me up, which I'm glad they want to help out, but with my luck with guys this year, I really don't want to worry about that. I like just kickin it back and thinking of myself for a change and what I want. I don't hate boys, well I kind of do, I just want to be myself for a change.

Which is probably why I love The Beatles. I loved them in junior high, and still to this day they are my most favorite!!! They just remind me to take life as it comes, and roll with the punches. I know it's cheesy but their music has this freedom sound to it, not like American freedom haha, but this feeling of being yourself and being ok with it.

So yeah i appreciate the jester of wanting to set me up with cute guys, but I'm sick of getting my heartbroken. Things were easier when i was 30 lbs heavier, didn't wear make up, and walked around in basketball shorts and an oversized t-shirt, and listened to Beatles music 24/7.

Which is why exactly right now I'm watching Across the Universe and freakin enjoying being single, and waiting for my Jude to come and be my best friend forever lol! Maybe that's just what I need. That feeling of having a best friend. I had that with Mark, but when you break up... yeah that shit is gone. I wish we never became a couple and just remained close friends. Man I'm an idiot.

What The?

So last night I'm getting ready to go to a movie with Gordon and his buddies when I get a text from Mark. I was surprised, i mean we were texting earlier that day but this one stopped me in my tracks. "Hey so do you need space?"

Um... yeah him and i have been going out the past 4 weeks. So i reply, "what do you mean?" Of course i know what he means, but I wasn't sure what he was implying. "I feel like I'm taking you away from your friends." "Not at all why do you think that?" "Because we've been hanging out every weekend." "Yeah so? I don't hate it, do you?" The way that was texted probably sounded pissed, but i wasn't. I just hate guys mind games. So retarded. Who's with me?!

To continue "No, I love it! I Just worry about your friends." Anyway we concluded we like hanging out with each other and we want to go out this weekend again. I told him I'd plan it this time. I have no idea what to do. Should be interesting. He told me he likes talkin to me and hanging out with me. Kids is still the most quiet kid ever, but we'll see how things go. I still have a hard time trusting him, but people change right? He needs some growing up to do. But then again I REALLY want to take his VL. Does that make me a bad person?

Not Going To School... Yet

Yes I am cool and not going to school. Actually I'm not gonna lie, I'm quite jealous of all my friends for going to school. Good thing I have institute, once a week, for an hour and a half. That is my social life, and then the little doo dads with the singles ward, then sometimes dates with Mark, and Gordon dragging me to random things. I need to hang out with girls, no i really do. The people I hang out with in the singles ward are guys, and you already know who they are.

I could go on about that, but i think I'm just going to keep my boy thoughts to myself for this blog. Save ya'll the pain, and I'm pretty sure I can imagine what you're thinking.

SO SINCE I'm not going to school, i will be focusing my life on Jesus. Yes I mean i already do, but I'm going to be going the whole 9 yards like every Mormon girl should. Read my scriptures, journal writing, institute attending, temple attending, praying, and i'm sure i can think of more. But it's been working, focusing on more important things has made life seem more easier. I do love my church, in fact today a friend in California was asking questions about the Book of Mormon, missionary moment, it was awesome.

PS haha ugly crier from New Girl. I just love this show. I have mentioned it?

Donald Rant... again...

if this man ever came back to life, this is what i'd be doing. 

and that's not creepy.... 

Worth the Wait

He's so cute and he asked me out again! I AM VICTORIOUS!!

BUT I AM! Came back to the house and jammed to ET by Katy Perry! MWAHA! 

New Girl is Amazing

Ha yes i love New Girl. I'm not sure if you knew that yet, it's just such a fantastic show. I've come to realize that i do have guy friends like Schmidt, Nick and Winston. My guy friends and who they are. Good thing they don't read this or they might kill me.

Schmidt is hands down Aaron. Home maker, a little obsessive about things, and kind of a geek. PS don't use his towel or dirty his car. Oh wow this is kind of creepy.

Nick is definitely Gordon... i think. Probably the most normal, but him and i can make jokes and go off on tangents and it makes life silly. Nick is silly and he's obsessed with having a girlfriend just like Gordon. Wow life would be insane if all of these guy friends lived with me.

And last Ryan is definitely Winston. They both love sports, spend their life with sports and yes there we go. He wants to be a free spirit and he is, and he secretly has embarrassing things he does. It's so fantastic! It's so awesome! lol i can see him singing Defying Gravity on his way to Mexico.

Yup this is what i do on my nights off. Exciting right? lol well back to more NEW GIRL!!!