Thursday, June 21, 2012

Oh Life is Awkward

I'm bored to be completely honest with you. My family is having home teachers over and here I am in a Singles Ward and I don't even know who my home teachers are :) YAY!

So tonight I'm having a friend come over and watch Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadows because he has not seen it. For some odd reason I am so nervous. Here is why.
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So this guy, I've known him for a while, but i wasn't ever really friends with him, my older sis who is really good friends with him has always been like "you'd love him! You guys have so much in common you'd get along, on you two are going to get married." and i'm like....

My parents love him to! My dad thinks he's just the most awesome kid, which he's so great, but what am i thinking it's only like tonight right? Just focus on tonight. Oh here's the story...

Saturday I went to a party with Aaron and he was there. I hardly talked to him, I mean I guess I was a bit of a flirt, but with another guy (who is so cute), but I did talk to him, the guy (I'm not dropping names). Left the party, then Sunday night he started chatting with me via Facebook. It was fun he's way sweet and then he asked me for my number. I saw it coming but yeah, for the past 2 days we've been texting non stop. It's kind of scary because of what my sister has always said. I mean i'm not expecting to marry him, but i feel a lot of pressure to have to get a long with him ya know? I'll give him a chance, i'm not that shallow... even though i turned down a guy last week... but anyways I just need to get that out. Oh life is awkward isn't it? Wish me luck tonight!

Thursday, June 14, 2012

I'm no Hitch

For the past while people have been asking me for relationship advice.
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Yeah i thought the same thing. I've never been in a relationship, I mean yes I have seen how relationships fail but heck when it comes to relationships there are no rules, the one rule is to be yourself, and your best self. Everyone is going to approach a relationship in a different way. Some people like forward, some people like not forward, some people take it slow, fast, I mean everyone is different. 
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Oh why i brought this up? OK so last week my friend texted me till 2 in the morning wondering what to do about a guy, first of all she's like 5 years older then him and in the end he was the jerk that ended it. A random TOTALLY random stranger at a fireside handed me his phone and was like "is my girlfriend mad at me?" 
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My friend in New Zealand wrote me a novel about a girl wondering what he should do about it. I can't even physically see the guy. 
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How am I supposed to know? Then my buddies John and Josh were asking me all these questions about girls and what are good signs and what are bad signs and how they should approach the situation. I'm like guys this is so awkward. Especially when you'd like to date one of them and now they know "the signs"
Well i just had to rant. When it comes to relationships don't ask me. I've already failed at a relationship, never been in one and really not trying to look for one right now. 
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Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Been a While

WOOOW! So much has happened. Emotional roller coasters. Bottom line Aaron has decided he's not sure how he feels about me, wants to remain friends and see where we go because he likes what we have and yeah. There's a lot more to the story, if you want to know more you can ask me because I'm honestly sick and tired of talking about it and analyzing it, and today was a good day because I didn't think about it AT ALL! Sure I talked to him but nothing amazing. I'm going to go out with other guys and drink lots of water, and focus on me, go with the flow.

In other news well there really isn't.

I can't wait to start at the U! It's like my dreams are coming true in a way. I've always wanted to go into news and media and this is like the first step. I want to work for ESPN, ahah i watched it for like 3 hours with Ryan yesterday.

Random: I want 5 Guys. Or a burger in general. I've been craving one since St George. It was fun for a while, but when the friends that you have there all like anime, you kind of feel left out. I mean there is NO WAY IN HELL i am going to like anime. I have been brought up my whole life to dislike it, and sure I'll watch it with them but the whole time i'm thinking "i could be watching something with more class, and talent". No offense but anime is pathetic. I could rant on and on and on about it! If you like it whatever you do what you do, but don't try to get me to like it because it just makes me hate it more.
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Well it's time for bed. That's the update of my life. I need new friends, a new environment, and maybe a new hair cut. I need my bangs back.

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Your Thoughts?


went to a party tonight and someone was talking about this. I find the girls pretty accurate. I wonder how guys feel. 

17 secrets to the male psychology
1. Men seek out relationships that make them feel trusted and respected.
2. Men love through sacrifice.
3. Good men are largely logical about their relationships and commitment. Thus they do not commit easily to things they have not invested in over a period of time.
4. Men are driven to succeed, face challenges, compete, and conquer.
5. Men like women who like themselves.
6. Men love to be heroes.
7. Men like being appreciated.
8. Men like femininity.
9. Men like women who have opinions and assert their needs.
10. Good men pursue women who are approachable and appear to be available.
11. Good men want sex with a woman who feels good about having sex with them and will wait until marriage.
12. Men need to be needed.
13. Men are repelled by criticism, nagging, and whining.
14. A man experiences anxiety in every conversation a woman initiates until she tells him what she wants him to do.
15. Men bond through doing activities and talking about things more than they do through talking about people, problems, feelings, or ideas.
16. Good men adore women who give them love, attention, and affection.
17. Good men are often willing to talk openly and honestly when they feel it will help them or another person to do so.


17 secrets to the female psychology
1. Women thrive when they feel safe and secure.
2. Women love through sacrifice. However, women often love and sacrifice in ways that are not good for the male psychology. Thus, a woman needs a man to communicate about his needs. Not only will a woman love him for communicating respectfully with her, but the more she sacrifices to meet his needs, the more deeply her love will grow.
3. Women read into men’s behaviors, get excited, assume commitment, and then get hurt when he pulls away due to the added pressure.
4. Women are critical of their bodies and fear competition from other women.
5. Women are attracted to strength and confidence.
6. Women are turned off by men who are too nice.
7. Women often fall in love with friends.
8. Women like to be pursued and to feel wanted.
9. Women enjoy touch, kissing, and affection but feel vulnerable and prone to shame after sexual contact.
10. Women want men who hold off sexually – it makes a woman feel respected and wanted rather than feeling like an object.
11. Women want immediate relationships but trust and value slow progressing relationships.
12. Women long to feel adored.
13. Women are repelled by moping, brooding, and the silent treatment.
14. Women worry. They need to know they are not alone in dealing with the problems of the relationship.
15. Women who don’t trust and respect their men fall out of love, especially if there is no communication.
16. Women like gifts, surprises, reasonable spontaneity, and excitement. The extra effort makes them feel special.
17. Women would rather have open and honest communication about misdeeds than to be protected from the truth.

--- Snell, Alisa Goodwin, L.M.F.T. (2008). Dating Game Secrets for Marrying a Good Man.---

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

One Of Those Thoughtful Blogs

So I guess the last one was kind of a thoughtful post. But whenever I watch Across the Universe I all the sudden take a second look at my life and wonder if I'm doing what I want to be doing. In this movie they don't care what people think of them, they go with their own beat in life. I mean yes i do have more freedom since I am 21 and stuff, but I feel like I have to flow with the social norm. If I'm not then I'm an outsider.
This may sound ridiculous but heck I'd love just to go audition for a band, or a play, I say this all the time and I know i'm not gonna do it because in my mind I know it's a waste of time.
Gosh I hate being so emo sometimes. But i mean people make it look like they have a normal life, or at least some people do, some people like to be dramatic, but deep down everyone has something that bothers them about life, I guess it's just finding that one thing you can focus on to make you happy. But when that thing that makes you happy is taken away then you have nothing to focus on, so we're always looking for that thing that makes us happy, whether it be a relationship, family, drugs, whatever we're always looking for that happiness... then again we have the drugs that are an artificial happiness but it still makes us happy.
Well I am done with this blog. I'm just very tired and my filter is off so you get to read THAT.

Sunday, March 11, 2012

Here I Am... Again.

I need my iTouch to charge so i have something to listen tomorrow at work, which i really REALLY don't want to go tomorrow. It's like another full week. This is why people hate Mondays. I mean when it came to school i was totally fine with it because i got to meet new people and see my friends, but work is the same thing over and over and over again. Plus i have to talk on the phone and i just can't, and of course sit at a computer all day. Wait i do that when i go home anyway...
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I mean I do get to talk to my cousin all day, and I can text all my awesome friends. BTW if I text you, you're actually someone i enjoy talking to. If i haven't text you... well text me and I'll text you.

Saturday, March 10, 2012

Kinda Bored.


Well third date with Aaron went down very well :) I just wish I knew what his intentions were, and I'm praying he's just not leading me on because then we'd have a problem. I guess I just have a hard time trusting guys intentions ever since Matt. But what'err.
So this week till Thursday i will be here house sitting and dog sitting. Two big boxer dogs who are just adorable sleeping while i watch TCM and swoon over the good old classics. Hopefully some Gene Kelly movies will appear because then I'd be in my happy place.


SO if anyone wants to come over they can... ya know anyone. The dogs might attack you *looks over at Oakley* or FART! but they have great cable, and a comfy couch, and left me a bunch of food. Just saying.

Since this blog is about boring stuff can i just say how excited I am for the coming months? I need March to end already. April is gonna be SO AMAZING.

1. John Willams concert with Aaron! I love both these men, can life get any better?
2. Half Marathon!
3. Get to buy The Avengers tickets which I will be seeing with Aaron.
4. Epic half marathon party with Jenn!

In May:
1/2. THE AVENGERS!!!!!!!!!
1. DISNEYLAND!
2. DISNEYLAND!
3. DISNEYLAND!
4. ALL MY FRIENDS WILL BE OUT OF SCHOOL AND I'LL HAVE A SOCIAL LIFE AGAIN!
I've spent a long time on this blog. I mean How I Met Your Mother is almost over. AND TED IS KISSING ROBIN! I do love this show. I love the Big Bang Theory too :) But i am feeling very lucky lately. Got a better job at work...even though it's stressful. When i got my car fixed the guy knocked off 100 bucks! I mean how awesome is that?! I've been asked out by 4 different guys, one is definitly a NOOO! One I had to turn down because i had another date and now he's fallen off the face of the earth. The other i really don't give a crap, and Aaron :) I'm working out, losing weight i mean life has been good. But being the half glass empty person i am i just know something awful is going to happen, i can feel it. I'm like dreading it! Anticipating it.
OK I'll stop ranting, i think I've typed your ear off. Peace out! I'll probably blog tomorrow night too... with more nothing to talk about. and yes I am in love with the show New Girl. I want to be like Jess SO MUCH!